Storm in a Teacup

It’s those nights when your bored at home that you browse the net, for me its youtube tutorials on makeup and hauls and such like.. and even that can land you in “awkward” situations.. 

we all know youtube has a notorious weird side that you think you would only land in if you searched something like man dancing in donkey suit.. not makeup tutorials.. but again i’ve wound up watching some soft anime porn “makeup turtorial” WHAT THE FUCK? Now I thought I’d seen it all on youtube… apparently not. 

On another note… 

On the plus side tumblr has yet again confirmed the love I have for life and all its concerns right now. There’s been a trend on what i’m reblogging tonight, and it’s clear I’m having a love affair with life. Something I should have started long ago. As well as that I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship, how lucky I am. And though he may never read this (since he’s too hipster for Tumblr) I really value and love what we have. And I’d like to thank him, because if it weren’t for him I’d been in a shit place right now.. So thank you. 

And there were times I was sure, so sure
I couldn’t turn it around
I couldn’t care any more
About the good things I found
That’s when you gave me a reason
To make me smile again

It’s the little things that make everything worth it sometimes.. 

“But I don’t want to go among mad people,” Alice remarked.
“Oh, you can’t help that,” said the Cat: “we’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.”
“How do you know I’m mad?” said Alice.
“You must be,” said the Cat, “or you wouldn’t have come here.”

Gaga said it first and most correctly, “once the mirror is broken you can still see the cracks in the reflection.” 
Trust has come to my attention, its one of the biggest gifts you can give someone, to give someone your trust is like giving them a glass ball that they must take care of and never break, because if they do it’s likely it can never be repaired.

I’m lucky to know that in my relationship the trust is equally shared, and i couldn’t bare the thought of it being broken.
But its a delicate balance between trust and love that if unbalanced can lead to wrong decisions.

My thought is that if someone broke my trust, i would never give them back that glass ball, i would never let them handle my trust again. Its not worth it. 

but we must learn from our mistake… not take the ones who handle our trust with the most care for granted, and always handle others trust with more care as if it were our own.  

Someone said to me yesterday something that  really thought deeply about.. you see I’m on this mission to be more positive.. cause less problems and generally be happier with what I have now. mid convo we were talking about hay-fever (worst thing ever) and how her boyfriend sneezes all the time and it really peeves her. I said why don’t you tell him to go away when he’s sneezing if it really annoys you that much and she replied

”..You would’t rouse on a friend for sneezing, so why would you rouse on your boyfriend.. they really are the same as a friend except they love you.. more reason to not pay attention to the little thing they do that annoy you.. “

Because lately I’ve found myself picking on little things. This really cleared things up or me.

Hopefully it does for you too. 

i dislike being this person.. take me somewhere away from me..